Poem for Norman
I wish I could remember the date and the time we met for the first time
I wish I could remember the weather, or the place
I wish I could recall what you were wearing or what you said
Fruitless
Are the details for what is engraved in the cells of my heart,
Is your sweet gentle face
Tis this sweet gentle face that I searched for at church on Sundays
Like a reassuring embrace
Embrace
Is what I often needed when I put on my brave face
Hiding my sorrow or my pain
Anxious thoughts and worries
But one glance at you and dear beautiful Jenny,
Was all I needed to feel
Love
Emanating from your every pore
Gracious unconditional and non-judgemental love
Safe
Is how I felt in your presence
Trusting your every word, advice.
Praying
For me, for the folks in church, for all those hurting in every part of the world
Relentless
in your fervent pursuit of the ‘lost’
Like the good shepherd going after his 1 sheep
Dedication is inspiring and yours was admirable, unflinching, determined to reach them all no matter what
I often wondered about your boys and what life would be like as your child
Sharing their father with thousands of others all wanting a piece
I wondered if they felt resentful or jealous or lonely or did they feel proud and in awe of the life you lived for Christ
For Christ
You run the race, all in, no compromises, invested with your every breath, focused on the prize, Jenny always faithful and loving by your side
I ached to somehow reach you more, to feel part of who you were, to sample a taste of the infinite riches of the faith you held within
We shared an obsessive love for books and so I felt I belonged
It was ok to be addicted to books and learning if Norman did it
I mused
Vanity
Really, how could I compare me to thee
This great man admired, pursued, loved as shepherd and also as dad, husband, friend, brother.
I wonder what it felt like to reach the finish line, to pick up the prize you dedicated your life to
Was it worth it?
Did you beam with joy?
Did you walk into the arms of Jesus and did you have time to look back and wave goodbye?
I ache to think of those left behind
Putting on a brave face
Grateful for your faith
For your example
For your life
But etched in their hearts is also their pain
Of losing a father, a grandfather, a husband and a mate
One thing is certain
Unflinching you paved the way
And of all that I admired in you
Your grace, humility, strength and love
I will never ever forget the way you made me feel in your fatherly warm and loving
Embrace
